As what I am

Night pass by
As I tried to remember what went wrong with my life
When did it shift
As What I am now is nothing
Far in comparison to my past
As I am before Worth more than the present
Is it a challenge
To turn me into what I can't be
Is it failure
To drag me down till the bottom of the pit reach up
Knowing.......
Which one it it?
Would be a wonderful felling
Among the loneliness to step forward

As what I've become
I stand up
Blind as it seems
Deaf......?
Could be time which shift me so quickly
Cause worthy as I may
Trigger by many consequences to but deliver the night remedy
As I am now.......
Not worthy of anything
---Mamonto